Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Lessons in Waiting

Kindergarten. Christmas. Birthday. Summer Break. First Grade. Christmas. Birthday. Summer Break.... High School. Christmas. Birthday. Summer Break. Driver's License. Graduation. College. Graduation. Career. Husband. Baby. Baby sleeping through the night. Potty Training...

Lessons in waiting seem to be common in my life and the lives of most people I know. There are times when I feel the wait is unbearable. There are times when I see the wait to be a way for the Lord to strengthen my faith.

When I was in college, my best friend and I would sit on her bed and contemplate the deep and meaningful things in life- When in the heck would God hook us up with husbands?

She marveled at my faith, though I was already in my mid-20's and had never had a serious boyfriend, I was confident that the Lord had already set a godly man aside for me. I just believed it, I didn't doubt it. And so I waited, patiently for the one that God had for me.

When he found me (rather, when my very good friend of several years, Caleb, realized that I was the one for him), there was very little waiting. We dated for 5 months, 2 of which I was in Russia. We were engaged for 5 months, and then we made a lifelong covenant before the Lord, to be husband and wife. So I waited 25 long years for that boyfriend (really only 20 years because I didn't become totally boy-crazy until I met Matt H. over the oatmeal bucket in Kindergarten), and then once that boyfriend came, I waited less than a year to get married.

Shortly after Caleb and I "pulled the goalie*" we discovered why Catholics have so many children-
NFP. A month after we began NFP, I came home from work and ate 6 bean and cheese chalupas. I puked the next morning and the plus sign indicated that our little Avery would be a short wait away from our arms. So really, in terms of childbearing, I have really had to do very little waiting. Some may argue, that because we have had four children in our seven years of marriage, we have done too little waiting.

But now we are waiting. Waiting four months, without income, for Caleb's first commission checks to come in. Waiting for the market to rebound so we can sell our house in Colorado and move into our own place. Waiting to open the Barbies that Avery picked out 6 days ago for her birthday. Waiting to get conclusive results about Reece's possible metabolic disorder.

I got a call from the phlebotomist today and she apologized for running the wrong test on my daughter. She asked if I could come back in so they could draw another sample and then send it off. She explained that we may have to wait four weeks for the results.

Waiting. And setting my alarm clock for midnight and 4am to wake my babe and feed her.

Sometimes waiting seems impossible. Sometimes it causes knots in your stomach and sleepless nights. I think of my friends that have waited tirelessly to conceive a child. I think of friends who wait anxiously for a loved one to return home from war.

When waiting seems impossible, there is great hope in the word of God.

"Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary." Isaiah 40:31.

Lemme tell ya why I love this verse. Take a look at what we are waiting for. Go ahead, take a good look.

Are we waiting for childbearing? Are we waiting for income? Are we waiting for lab results? Are we waiting for a loved one's safe return? Are we waiting for Barbie Repunzel?

No. We are waiting for the Lord. And look at the glorious thing. Those who wait on the Lord will gain new strength. This is a promise. This is God's Word. This is truth. We may never conceive, we may never get a dime, or a Barbie Repunzel. But we will be given the strength to deal with the 12 am and 4 am feedings.

Now I love that we will mount up with wings like eagles, because that sounds strong- but if you know me at all, you know that I am not a huge fan of birds, so I could do without this analogy.

But I love the part, "run and not get tired," because, truly, I am sooooo not into running. One block and I am sucking wind. Anything that pertains to me being super energetic and not tired, or not weary, because I have waited for the Lord- I am interested in.

So we are waiting. Waiting for income, waiting for market rebounds, waiting for Barbie Repunzel, waiting for lab results. Waiting for the Lord.

10 comments:

LeeAnn said...

How refreshing... perspective, waiting on the Lord, not anxious about things in this world... sweet

I love you and miss you my sweet Tynerbocker

Katrina said...

Miss you too...can we come visit you. I need some Tyne! Praying for your endurance as your run the race.

A Musing Mom (Taylorclan6) said...

Thank you for sharing those thoughts so concisely. Wouldn't it be nice to occasionally see the "Big Picture"? I think our priorities would be different.

Mrs Montoya said...

You are so incredible, Tyne. This is a gorgeous post. Do you mind if I share it on Twitter? I feel like I have some friends that are also waiting and could benefit from your grace and wisdom.

Thank you for the beautiful perspective. AND I'm not loving birds and running either. I can appreciate your levity :)

Genny said...

I just tried to comment and then got an error, so I'm sorry if this is a duplicate. Anyway, I loved, loved, loved this post. What a great reminder, especially since I'm not the most patient person.

I pray that you get answers to all you are waiting on!

vickypad said...

oh tyne i miss you thanks for blogging. happy bday avery girl.

Melissa said...

Great blog Tyne. Made Sean read it too after his expressing worry to me about 2 mortgages and a shaky job situation. We were both uplifted. Thank you for sharing your faith with those who struggle to be as faithful!

Anti-Supermom said...

Tyne, I'm so sorry that you have so much to go through... I hope that Reece is going to be OK, praying that she is healthy, as she was meant to be.

Hugs.

Lisa@verybusymomwith4 said...

Sweetie,
You have amazing faith! I needed to read this today. We are waiting too (cannot believe how much we have in common!)

Lisa

McKay said...

Very nice! I remember those days of waiting for a husband! It seems so pointless now!

I've also been learning to be content while I wait (I call it "advanced studies in waiting" and the military is a relentless tutor).

But if I think about the past few times I've had to wait, I see what wonderful things the Lord provided for me when my desire was that "I just want to know!"